born in the element of air

it's a game tonight.

write the post and finish it before you feel like its a waste of gab. PUBLISH it and dont collaspe it in the wee hours.


(colorado)

earlier today, i went out to sit alone for a while. there was no need to escape, no mounting pressure with constant others, just this tug which makes my feet move. ever done that before? where you dont know why but you let the walking take you then you find yourself at a spot and it brings you into the complete connection of oneness.

someone wrote to me that the moment would come, that id either laugh or cry. today, it did. the thoughts were still in spite of swarms which dissolved into being fully aware of the wind. into this,

(you may not see the wind, but it's there. strong ones :))

they go to all places with knowing every thought, wishes, longings, happiness and things we dont know. there may be storms but they only last as long as a storm would. as for the fog, it shrouds the secrets which are never uttered, only known by every anyones. they lightly carry these burdens in comparison to us. they, this, me, you, i, us, that, it, breeze, yum, mmm... ..

*silence*

eventually, awareness of reality taps at you and off goes the sensation of oneness. i do remember the lingering thoughts that trailed away. it was a little, ohh.. no. wait, stay. but it felt right to stop and turn back. when i did, the timing was fun to meet.


(a race of their own)

there was mally and jahren, running towards me from the barn. screaming because aengus was chasing them. they landed on the fence and climbed atop before aengus reached us. (he was really nice about it. he dawdled a bit to give them a headstart. so cute)

we sat together, each on our post and talked for a while. in comes kim with the mule,
just as we were about to embark on our own adventure, fred mackerodt (owner of stone farm) invited us for a spin in the woods on the other side of the road. oooooooOOOOOOooooooo.

i have been waiting for this moment ever since i booked the tickets. seriously.

here, (pictures were taken while we were on the move from inside the mule)


pardon the vanity but i must add this one,

kim took this picture and it is one of my most favorites. if you look carefully, you can see jahren is in my lap and of course, mally. this trip has been a full mode mothering time and i am LOVING every moment with them. another thing that means so much to me is my hearing aid. besides the closeness i am experiencing with my family i am also experiencing a full blown theme of "deafness." that, my dear beautiful ones, is ANOTHER story.
anyway,
it was time to go back to the farm,


we also swam at uncle j's place and meant to go out for a walk in the night but rain stopped the walk and changed it into a dance.

lighting flashed and as always, i screamed out a

WWHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

loving it here to the max (and yes, all will always be well)
off she goes....